Current mood:

sad

UGH
I gave in...i cant believe myself...ugh
everything just doesnt seem to be turning around any time soon. theres nothing to look forward to anymore, not thats worth looking forward to anyway, well besides graduation and thats months from now!!!
he was the only one to look forward to, its all over a guy...AGAIN!!! i cant believe myself, i was doing just fine, and then i start to like someone, fall and have to start all over again, and then, relapse, why does this happen?? why now! why cant things go back to how they were...where this stuff wasnt a part of my life...why does it have to be brought back into my life...now of all times!!
could it be because i miss home
could it be because i miss him
could it be because everything seems over??
i cant stand the pain of doing it, but i deffently cant stand the pain of this hurt...any longer!!!!
poems dont help anymore...they used to and now they all seem kinda pointless. there all about the same thing!
i cant stand on my own two feet anymore all i can do is constantly fall...(not literally) it hurts to cause pain and it hurts to cry...why???